This was me the past few months. But the funny thing is, I was stuck in an awesome season with the Father; prayer and scripture came so easily. My Secret Place with the Lord was at it's peak, yet something inside me screamed, "There's so much more to Him!!"
I was craving a move and a shift in our relationship. I wanted to be like Peter, who's shadow healed the sick. I wanted to host the presence of the Lord so strongly, it brought people to repentance.
So, why, Lord?
Why am I stuck doing the same things, at the same times, and not seeing much progress?
It took me so long to realize - I'm in this for all the wrong reasons.
I lift my hands in worship because I feel His presence.
I read scripture because I want to have cute underlines on every page.
I pray because I know He'll answer my requests.
Everything was all about me.
I kept asking God to take me deeper, when in reality I only wanted His benefits, and not any of His glory. And God's not in the business of selfishness, lemme tell 'yah.
I realized, this whole time, I've been completely missing the point.
I receive revelation to GIVE revelation; not to keep in a box and show off.
We're filled to empty into others; not build our own personal spiritual Kingdom.
We're filled to empty into others; not build our own personal spiritual Kingdom.
So, my question to you is, are you feeding off His presence, or His glory? When the going gets tough, do you want to feel His benefits, or experience His goodness?
